iconic: grand velour

Untitled and unloved.

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 04:57:16 +0000

Its been a while since I have been here, and yet somehow I randomly thought of the many accumulated experiences that I sometimes choose to forget.

I wonder if this is where my best writings come out, because I tend to be feel an entire wrath of emotions whenever I visit this site. As if it’s calling me to do my best, and taunt me to fall into the depth of its pain once again, just so it will feel a little less lonely.

I feel sad everytime I come here. I feel like I have been overcome by a sense of sadness, and that sadness needs to be released here.

Were there any happy moments?

Stay.

Thu, 12 Jan 2012 01:59:44 +0000

So much drama with this blog, but we’re working on backing up the database, and redesigning my site!

I have been writing, but elsewhere.

Visit me @ www.jessicahong.wordpress.com

By JFK

Wed, 26 Oct 2011 03:21:55 +0000

“As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.”

Lesson #2610

Wed, 26 Oct 2011 03:13:45 +0000

For once in my life, I’m cringing at the words I have written. Like I could put so much into them and have them mean nothing at all to the intended recipient.

The aim of life is appreciation; there is no sense in not appreciating things; and there is no sense in having more of them if you have less appreciation of them.

Moral of the story? If there is no appreciation, get the fuck out. Stop giving to those who are undeserving of your time.

In the end

Wed, 26 Oct 2011 03:01:40 +0000

I don’t believe you no more.

Protected: Crazy

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 03:44:57 +0000

If I was a fine fragrance….

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 01:17:25 +0000

Cherry Blossom, Peach and White Jasmine.

Infused with Aloe Vera and Chamomile.

Undertones of Amber Wood and Cedar essence.

You cannot trust me to always be bubbly and out there, because you know my underlying soul is grounded to darkness.

Surely I’d be a vapouriser, because as captivating as I can be, I will surely fade.

I can never linger too long on you.

Protected:

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 03:57:28 +0000

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 00:03:53 +0000

I am trying to rebuild my relationships but I am scared. I wonder who really knows me and how I am like. Im not always who I make myself out to be, and I’m petrified that when you figure this out, you will be disappointed in me and shake me to my very core. That being who I am is not enough and does not live up to the expectations you say you dont have of me.

I don’t blame you for anything in the past, despite the repercussions it has had on me. I don’t believe you had meant to leave me all alone all the time, but it has given me a deep sense of emptiness, even when my world is filled with noise and character.

I know you love me unconditionally, and I am forever thankful you always reach out to me and try to be my savior. But I cannot change how scarred I have become from your lack of action and I cannot accept all of the love at once. But believe me, Im trying.

I love you and I appreciate you, but pretty soon, I will need to leave you, and I hope with the love you have for me you can understand that I need to find my place within me, and around me.

Tue, 18 Oct 2011 01:18:39 +0000

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either & the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, cause you to think twice & if he admits to being human & making mistakes, hold onto him & give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry & he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, & miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”